I spent today by the pool in Palm Springs, in 102 degree heat, reading the book: Blogging for Writers, by Robin Houghton. I figured it would be some mini-vacation light poolside reading. Instead I became overwhelmed by the amount of information there is to know about how to create a successful blog.
My mind is swimming with questions posed to me in this book: What type of pieces do I want to post on my blog? What do I want to write about? Who is my audience? Why do I want to blog? I am resistant to answering these questions because I am afraid it will take the joy out of writing. I want to write from a place of creativity. I do not want to think about who will read it. Currently I am just enjoying writing, sort-of enjoying editing, and trying not to think about the rest.
I take a deep breath and try to have faith in the process and know that I am where I am supposed to be, and it will all work out. I will get there, somewhere, wherever that may be. "You read a lot of information today," I tell myself. "Things will become clearer, more in focus. You have a lot to process, and something, maybe even a successful blog, will come out of this inchoate mess."
I say to myself over and over again, "trust in the process."
Just because I am not currently doing on my "baby blog" what is described in this book I am reading, does not mean I am in the wrong place. It does not mean I should stop because I am not good at blogging. "You have barely started," I remind myself. What it means is I have spent one day working at figuring something out and I am closer to today's goal of knowing more about successful blogging than I was at the beginning of the day.
The trick today, right now, is not getting sucked into the spiraling wormhole of self-doubt. That only creates my own suffering, and it does not serve me.
Today I am telling myself: "I am okay with this inchoate mess of my own process of creating."
If you are a blogger reading this, how did you get started? What is the creation story for your blog? What is your process of creation?